((O)) Helios is smiling today ((O))
– Feedback so far has been more supportive than I could have ever have asked for.
– People have been asking about a Vinyl release- considering setting up a Kickstarter so please feel free to comment/register your interest here.
– There’s still so much to do – self-promotion-wise – that it feels like I’m just at the foot of a mountain but as point #1 has been so positive, I feel that now I actually have a decent thing to push and can only wait until the rest of the world cottons on to it.
– This album took a buttload of balls to make. It’s the one thing in my life that I was posessed about. I had to get it done. Ever since I was a little girl at 4, exploring mum’s piano for the first time, Id wanted to make music of my own. After an entire lifetime of not knowing where to start, being too shy, doubting myself and being torn between having to live in this world and earn money, and wanting to live in a musical realm and just exist, I finally scraped enough money over a year and a half together to do it. I’ve spent more money than I have made back on the music, but something deep in me is settled and happy now that I’ll never regret it. I finally have a body of work that actually is coherent, and describes me as not only a person but a musician. It’s just the tip of the iceberg too- I have so much more to share but not until I’ve done this first album a bit more justice.
Through all of life’s struggles, health issues, work stress, personal shit…I made this. and I’m so proud of it I sometimes hurt all over with the force of love I have for this album.
I can only hope it affects you as much as it has me, and is something you’ll cherish, as I will cherish all the blood, sweat, tears, money, friendship sacrifices and pain that went into making this. I know that sounds so totally dramatic. If it weren’t the truth. Every day from the moment I started recording with Matt, has been spent worrying about my “baby”.
And yet, at the end of the day, it’s “only” music right?…Right?
(image taken by Mike Watts and reproduced with permission 2015)